How has the world been?
Mine has been perfect, then in shambles and then a cross between the two. I would have liked to put my thoughts into words with greater frequency but the sudden ups and downs were just too erratic to document.
But there we go.
Somehow I keep returning to this blog. It calms me somewhat when all around me is only turbulent. I am preparing myself mentally for the sacrifice I have to make but at the same time all that consumes my thoughts is this affection that is fast turning into something bitter. I may be overstating the fact but how can you explain this sudden want to pull back into my shell?
I gamble. And I won. But the prize money is tainted and I know it will slip away from my grasp like all things pure are.
But I should be forgiven for feeling a little melancholy. I am too old to be carrying this burden. How I wished that it could have been different. But wishing doesn't make it happen.
The best I can ever hope for that after the dramatics have been played out, we will find some contentment, some peace and perpetual happiness.
Maybe I shall one day be deserving of that I thought could not be plausible to find.
Mine has been perfect, then in shambles and then a cross between the two. I would have liked to put my thoughts into words with greater frequency but the sudden ups and downs were just too erratic to document.
But there we go.
Somehow I keep returning to this blog. It calms me somewhat when all around me is only turbulent. I am preparing myself mentally for the sacrifice I have to make but at the same time all that consumes my thoughts is this affection that is fast turning into something bitter. I may be overstating the fact but how can you explain this sudden want to pull back into my shell?
I gamble. And I won. But the prize money is tainted and I know it will slip away from my grasp like all things pure are.
But I should be forgiven for feeling a little melancholy. I am too old to be carrying this burden. How I wished that it could have been different. But wishing doesn't make it happen.
The best I can ever hope for that after the dramatics have been played out, we will find some contentment, some peace and perpetual happiness.
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