Friday Rant

Inhibitions can sometimes be a defence but most of the time a crutch in my opinion. I know I should have been more discrete and I know I should have been more careful. But you see, I wanted it to leak. I wanted it to be known. The best rumors about yourself are the ones you engineered. It is an art this thing to ensure that it is controlled and does not manifest itself. I am still perfecting it but then again I did say I would be my own social experiment.

I have a headache. Am annoyed I was ‘tricked’ into lunch today with a potential suitor. Yawnnnnn… I can’t think of anything more boring but for appearance sake eh? Sometimes I really do think I am a courtesan. Only I don’t need expensive gifts or dinners. I can get that by myself, thank you very much. Speaking of which I need to get a new black jacket. The one I am wearing is now falling apart. My head stylist tells me I should revamp my wardrobe and get used to wearing more designer and bling stuff but I don’t know…I am just a simple kinda gal *rolls around laughing*.

I should work instead of faffing around but like I said I have a headache. I think I have bothered my new roomie enough now with my yakking so better distract myself by writing.

So MJ died today. Poor man. Problem was he reached the very pinnacle way too young. And when you are on top, there is only one way to go. Very sad business but perhaps after all he has been through, it is kinder this way. Or am I being too cynical? Anyway am wearing all black to commemorate the day. Would have worn a white armband too if I had one.

I bumped to an old University mate last night. I forgot her name. Real weirdo. Wouldn’t let me go back to my table but kept asking and asking for my number. Seriously woman, I don’t want to keep in touch with you. Get the hint. Go away. I was trying to be polite about it but then my tiredness got the better of me. Sigh. Am trying not to snap but sometimes just cannot help it.
I need to get my eyes checked. I wonder if like in London whether you need to make an appointment or whether you can show up. It’s no good when you can only see the signboards when it is nearly above you.

TPOP wants to meet to discuss a business proposal. Laughable the amount of people who want to discuss “business” with me lately. But this requires finesse to gently put-down. After all it is TPOP and he is an old friend. I already know my answer before we even begin. Yet one must always put on a good show. After all, the audience expects nothing less.

The other day I was really proud of myself. I had to get a compass and there were a few available in Kino. One was like a super ‘if a lorry were to drive over it, it would not break’ type. It also had a cover and everything. Another was basic and dinky but served the purpose. Price was obviously way different. I went for El-Cheapo. Little thing? I know. Keeps me grounded. I have a tendency to over-inflate and it is always good to bring me down from time to time. Occasionally. Not all the time. Maybe once in a blue moon. Almost never really.

This is sad but all I want to do right now is curl up on my sofa and read my book. It’s really good the thriller I am reading. It’s called ‘KILL FOR ME’. I only have two chapters and it is killing me not to know. I have another book waiting to start. I might delay that. It’s one of those inspiring books that might make you tear. A friend recommended it. We’ll see how it goes.

I have been writing for a bit…no? Quite long this entry given the fact that it is not exactly interesting news. Ok lah (see I am starting to be more Malaysian!) maybe it is time to rejoin the world.