Loud and Clear

You know what’s lovely?

That feeling that you are doing something completely worthwhile and adhering to the thoughts of your heart even if there are those who oppose it. Because there are just limited opportunities to do so in life. We are confined you and I, by the world, by family, by society, by friends, by convention and so on and so forth. We are boxed in.

But for sanity to have a chance, there must be one or a few instances if you are lucky where you are able to have your heart’s desire.. unless you are a psychopath or something akin to that. In that case … sorry… no desire for you there… please go straight to jail, do not pass Go and do not collect your $200.

I mean you just have to you know…. Set that little island in the sun of your life… to make it worthwhile. I swear to you it is exhilarating. That rush of happiness.

It has never been about the money for me. Sure I enjoy the luxuries of life and I don’t feel guilty about that.. but I know deep inside that what makes me tick is not the many notes of a dead Sultan in my wallet. No. It is the falling in love and the being in love aspect which brings me joy. Also considerable pain at times but you can’t have one without the other I suppose… or so they say. Not quite sure why or am just being petulant about it but that’s just an aside.

So I am rambling again. But I cannot help it. I spend my day being a shark when actually I am just a clown fish swimming around inside. Take me for who I am and wish me well… and I will do the same for you.

Not the most eloquent of entries but someone recently said to me that sometimes when I make things too flowery, the message gets lost. In between prose I hid the rose.  Excuse me… I clearly have a problem with words.

And if wishes of strangers do come true…. Have a wish for me that my one hope will become reality. xx