I think I am pretty spiritual. Not exactly religious but spiritually, I am where I want to be. I have made my peace awhile back and my conversations with God is frequent if incoherent at best.
I don't know how people do it. I guess it's a personal choice how you speak to Him. As for me, after my prayers I would say a verse to those I love, some specific things about Life which is more often than not on the advice I have given at work and then I would pretty much wing it. Mostly I ask Him questions. Told him I am pretty clueless at what is the best course for me. Igo through my pros and cons. He is a good listener and it purges me.
As long as we are being honest. And I have to be as this blog is very much my Circle of Truth.... I have come to realise that I really don't want to waste anymore time with things that are not worth pursuing. You can sometimes mistake selfishness for naivete.
A friend is going through something right now and because of my ice-cold nature I can't really reach out and say I have been there too buddy. But I have. And I want him to know that sometimes the worst thing can turn out to be the best thing. But you have to work for it. I don't think God thinks that highly of people who sit around and just asks for things.
I also know that if you keep thinking that everything is going to fail, it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. There's some sort of balance somewhere and I like others better than I are trying to find the perfect equilibrium. Which is a myth really.
I know that despite my misgivings, I am not one-dimensional. I just bought the t-shirt before most people. There are things which have come to irritate me and because they do it surprises me. But I have my answers and I am content.
I don't know how people do it. I guess it's a personal choice how you speak to Him. As for me, after my prayers I would say a verse to those I love, some specific things about Life which is more often than not on the advice I have given at work and then I would pretty much wing it. Mostly I ask Him questions. Told him I am pretty clueless at what is the best course for me. Igo through my pros and cons. He is a good listener and it purges me.
As long as we are being honest. And I have to be as this blog is very much my Circle of Truth.... I have come to realise that I really don't want to waste anymore time with things that are not worth pursuing. You can sometimes mistake selfishness for naivete.
A friend is going through something right now and because of my ice-cold nature I can't really reach out and say I have been there too buddy. But I have. And I want him to know that sometimes the worst thing can turn out to be the best thing. But you have to work for it. I don't think God thinks that highly of people who sit around and just asks for things.
I also know that if you keep thinking that everything is going to fail, it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. There's some sort of balance somewhere and I like others better than I are trying to find the perfect equilibrium. Which is a myth really.
I know that despite my misgivings, I am not one-dimensional. I just bought the t-shirt before most people. There are things which have come to irritate me and because they do it surprises me. But I have my answers and I am content.
And I am done trying to be ordinary just because people cannot understand me. Take it, leave it. I really think it's my choice. I actually love the rain. And I am only guessing what is ordinary anyway.
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