Dreamboat

Earth is back from her short break and in a text I tried to summarize what had happened. And this is the reply I received: “MY GOODNESS!!! Cannot leave u alone for 5 minutes man!!! Why tak propose to her terus?! Breakup 101…FAIL! Note: Please see me after class.” So many exclamations in a single text.

Sigh, I get it, am so going to get whacked when I next see her. Oh well, live and learn, crash and burn and err… that’s all I got. Who asked her to go on holiday? So in her absence I decided to play with Fire and you know how that always turn out. Right nevermind, back to the old drawing board.

For me, I am most dynamic when I am not in a relationship. I wonder if that’s true for everyone but there is some sense to it. I suppose your priorities are different. I would not say I am less ambitious in a relationship but it’s skewed towards a different goal. But any right minded will know that power, status and money does not a happy person make. I have seen it so many times, people with all the trappings of wealth and still they look as happy as some people on death row (figure of speech, not that I have seen people on death row but I imagine they’d look pretty depressed).

I guess what I want is a constant someone who I can show-off to. And like a puppy on ecstasy I have been guilty of running around trying to impress and shower them with gifts. Because the simple truth is what could be more meaningful than taking care of the one you love.

Is it really too much to ask out of life to find a gorgeous girl who loves me for all my imperfections and finds my lack of mental stability charming? All I want is that and a luxury apartment in the heart of KL/London/Rome/LA (according to my mood but always with an infinity pool), two nice cars (a Jaguar and a BMW) and a holiday or two per year staying in the best hotels. Is that too much to ask?

But seriously, is it my arrogance speaking that I don’t think it is impossible? Well the mterialistic part anyway. As for relationships, I am going to take a break from it for awhile and abstain. Rebounds just slows the process down for me anyway. Maybe I’ll take up art. Or fencing. Even the thought of a relationship makes me feel so tired. All you have to do is say that word to me and I am like…urgh…. wanna sleep. I think I might park this heart of mine like Davy Jones in the Dead Man’s Chest for awhile.