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Heads

I don't do waiting very well. Is it normal to factor exactly 45 minutes of drama in your busy schedule and an extra 15 just in case I get all upset. I wish time would hurry up and let's get this over with.

It's Halloween and without any effort I look positively scary... crazy hours at work does that to you I think. I love the fact that the girls on the 4th floor all seem to have big Simba manes that seem to grow bigger as the day turns to night. They should call it the National Geographic floor. Anyway I am absolutely gutted that I don't have any occasion to dress up. I blame my lazy friends for NOT having a Halloween dinner. Like COME ON...it so should be a public holiday.

Mind you there is just like loads to pick from. I kinda wanna be a pirate....with the eye patch and all. But I bet everyone else does too.. hmm let's see... Werewolf is also pretty cool...anything but a Vampire.... so bloody cliche I tell you ...besides I was Count Dracula way too many times....

Tails

I wanna forget so bad. Get rid of all these which I am feeling. But no one can see behind the smile and even if my eyes betray me my tongue refuses to co-operate. You said all the things you felt you needed to let me know. You expected me to reciprocate but I have no words to offer you but goodbye. I cannot do this anymore. I cannot pretend and I resent every single bit of you for making me deal with it. I wanna sweep it under the covers and fast forward but you speak of the months which passed us by so rapidly.

It makes me terrified to believe how wrong I was about you. I thought I knew you but my judgment is clouded by these people who have not my best interests at heart. People who are only there for what I can offer them.

Life is tough at the moment, for despite the crowd I am in ... I am suffocating. I wanna lose myself so bad but these invisible hands grips me so tightly and forces me not to jump from the cliff. I must be going mad... sometimes I feel as though I am one of two souls inhabiting the same body. I do not know which one is truly the real me and the sad thing is I don't really care.

Tonight is time for the black sleep with restless dreams which leaves me sweating but none the wiser when morning comes. Greeting the day with suspicion I will seduce it into believing I am not constraint by my own insecurities. It is all for your benefit.