Chasing Tails

I get it that we all need a reason for living. Something bigger than ourselves. So I get the reason we cling to our significant others and offsprings like life-rafts in turbulent seas. I suppose in a way I shouldn’t be too scornful of those who are quick to flaunt it, no matter how annoying they can be ( “Have mercy!”).

Anyway, I envy those who have arrived at the pinnacle of life in terms of self discovery and are happy with themselves enough to say “hey you are pretty fantastic!” every time they look into the mirror.

I am not quite there yet I think. At times I feel like I am constantly chasing my tail in pursuit of the many goals in life. The constant midfielder it seems but then again I have always been a “what’s next?” kinda person that sometimes I think I fear the idea of staying put in one place.

But today, I am determined to find some sort of breather for myself. Maybe put on some candle scent and a little bit of music. Sigh..bliss. Right after I finish work, go for my exercise, pick up stuff from the hardware and have dinner with my beloved. Oh goodie… 10 whole minutes for zen.

I would like to take this opportunity to wonder aloud at why, there seems to be an enormous amount of stupid and ill-mannered people in KL. I mean, do we breed them? It’s like a magnet. Not connected this last paragraph but as I was writing the above, I came across evidence of such but let's leave that rant for the next entry.