My Emo Trip

I have no issues in being a girl. Truly I prefer it over being a guy although I have to admit if I was a guy, Life would be so much easier for me. Seriously. But since I love the pretty things we girls get to have and the ultimate superpower of juggling ten thousand things at once in our head, I am confident I have the upper hand.

BUT... as I grow older I am starting to see the effects of the female biology. For example let's take yesterday's emo trip. I started the day feeling so tired I cannot even bothered to go to work. But somehow I ended up at my desk telling myself it's Friday anyway. Then as the day wore on, I felt increasingly depressed and just vulnerable thinking of my future and what I want. I never felt so incredibly alone. So I reached out to those I felt could chase away the blues. All this while I could hear 'Disturbia' from Rihanna playing in my mind... dam dam dee dam ....

Come 5:30pm I just could not take it anymore. With a grand flourish I slammed my laptop and announced to my poor roommate I am off! And during that drive home I played sad songs while lamenting my sad sad existence whilst refusing to pick up calls from concerned parties who from my chatting realised that I was for some reason malfunctioning. You thought it could not get any worse? Think again. Then I started crying on the way home... not all out sobbing on the steering wheel but rather silent tears. It did however get me to cut in and out a few lanes.... so I guess let's be thankful for that!

So I got home eventually. Hungry but was not able to eat yet and proceeded to barricade myself in my room and sing my emotional heart out. Then lo and behold I realised.... I got my period!!! Bloody hell. And just like that my mood changed and I was laughing hysterically at my emo display and proceeded to assure people I was fine and it was only hormonal. It does not cease to amaze me though how PMS can just affect the screws in your head so badly. Geez Louise indeedy!

So after going Doh! about a few times I was back to my old gregarious self! If not a little tired from all the blood I was pumping out. I think I slept super early at 9pm or something all the way until this morning when I woke up to a replay of Miss Universe during the swimsuit round!!! Talk about perfect timing! (Shout out to Miss Mexico, Miss Jamaica and Miss Guatemala!)

Ok so I may not be your typical girl because of that one fact but that doesn't change the fact that I go through the same things all girls do..if not more pronounced due to my nature.

I guess the point of this post is to just remind myself that I am normal (well as normal as I can possibly be...;)) and all is well and next time I go through the same trippy phase... I should just read this!