I am getting used to doing nothing which makes me calmer I think. Like I was so afraid of having nothing to fill my head space. Now everything is just stagnant. Like I removed myself from the world and am just living in the moment.
Ah yes living in the moment. Sounds very romantic but you'll soon find that if indulged in too long becomes a tad tedious. Because the truth of the matter is living in the moment is a pastime for the youth, it's that rebellious anthem you cling to when you're in your teens or early twenties as you reason with your maturing mind on the merits on why you cannot think beyond tomorrow.
The thrill does not last forever. Like everything, we are all victims of the architect of change. Of some great design we fail to appreciate and can only see with the benefit of hindsight. Whenever that may be.
There is also that fear that whilst you are living in that precious moment life will pass you by. But it suits some I guess. I think you have to choose at some juncture in your life whether you are a drifter or a person with a purpose. No prizes for guessing which one would be my choice but it was nice even if brief, to have pretended that I did not have a care in the world.
So wait up Life, I'm catching up on you and fingers crossed that this road I picked would lead to something meaningful.
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